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I love my Nation. And I love my God. Love for my Nation came 1^st. Do not forget that. But one of the things I have been wrestling with is my Earthiness. Not so much with me being Earth, but what kind of Earth will/should I be. 

I have known gods and Earths all of my life. I’ve seen all kinds of Earths. I’ve seen Earths that look like they are in the NOI. I’ve seen old Earths and baby Earths. I have seen home bodied Earths and militant Earths. Professional Earths and welfare Earths. Earths rocking hemp clothing and Birkenstocks and Earths in business suits. What I’m trying to say is that Earths come with a diversity that is all encompassing as it should be. After all we are Earth.

But I am surrounded by a lot of external influence. This external influence is affecting the way I’m seeing myself and my principles. Now don’t get it twisted I’m not one of these wishy washy chicks that get pulled by whatever get hold of me. But I do recognize a tree that bends is less likely to be uprooted in a storm. These loud and noisy influences have me questioning some things about myself, about the way I do things and handle my business. 

I cover my head nearly everyday. If I am outside and my head is not covered, my hair is probably wet. And got wet out doors and I don’t want it to mildew under the scarf and the scarf has given me every indication that mildew is a strong possibility. I also don’t wear pants. I stopped wearing pants years ago. I didn’t like the lecherous looks from men that I got when I wore jeans. And to be completely frank, I look better not in pants than I do in them. There are additional reasons why I don’t do pants, but I don’t know y’all like that.

Back to the issue…. Does my being Earth mean that I have to have a lot of babies or like other Earth’s babies? I know babies are the greatest, but I see that to encourage teaching of children who are teachable (or any other adult that’s teachable) which will preserve our Nation. But I don’t have children. I’m not even sure I can. And if I can have them, unless they all come at once, I don’t see having more than possibly 2. Does that make me a bad Earth that I don’t want a quiver full of children at my advanced maternal age?

I’m not a loud revolutionary either. I will do what I can when I see an injustice. But I am a behind the scenes kind of person. I don’t even like to take credit for work that I do. I don’t see anything wrong with that. But I have been told that as an Earth I am expected to be a warrior. Ummmm….. I don’t know how I feel about that.

I am a vegetarian with dread locks. That does no mean that I don’t expect to eat in plush restaurants. And I buy new clothes as I see fit and rock nice bags. I have a big house; that does not mean I’m gonna move the entire Nation into it and open it up for folks to let their children run amok and break up my things. I like the nice things in life. Does this mean I’m a bad Earth?

I read. I’m a big reader. And I been reading before my entrance into this Nation. But I read what I want to. That means some fiction. Does that mean I’m allowing myself to be polluted by the devil, or eating the wrong mental foods? 

I don’t smoke Equality. Not only that, I have NEVER smoked Equality and will look down on anyone that does. Last time I checked it was illegal. Am I a bad Earth because of that? 

I have kicked Earths and their seeds out of my home. They broke the rules. They had to go. Does that mean that I am a bad Earth?

I really love my God. And I know the proper thing is to revolve around him. BUT…. I’m not sure he realizes that my own 1037 1/3 mph has to come 1^st. The Earth rotates on it’s own access to maintain it’s fertility. Should the Earth do like the moon and not spin on it’s axis, then only on part of the planet would face the Sun. There would be all darkness and cold on one side of the Earth and all heat and sunlight on the other. I have responsibilities to self that have to trump what I do for/with him. I have to maintain a balance. It can’t be all about the God all the time. And it can’t be all or nothing. Yes I reflect him. But not because I’m trying to but because we are well suited. I’m not trying.

This build is not over. It will never be over. Something tells me that for as long as I am Earth I will have these internal/external conflicts. But I need to study to show myself approved so that I can stand comfortably on my own square.

Peace

I come in the name is Serenity Love Sincere Peace Earth.......

Ooooooohhhhhhh! This is gonna be very unpopular. B.U.T. People need to wait on their names . 

In Allah’s Nation we choose for ourselves righteous names. A lot of the times the names come directly out of our lessons or they are attributes. Not Islamic names. Allah said that our names should be different from those in the mosques/temples. So there are Gods and Earths walking around with names like Born Understanding Lord Equality Mathematic God Allah or I’Mecca Wise Earthiasia Reflection True Earth. I am exaggerating. Folks be 1:36ing. Where as I advocate righteous names, I just don’t think one should get one until one Knowledges 120, if one is to Knowledge 120. Some Gods do not think it necessary to teach their Earth’s 120. If that’s the case, then that Gods should be the responsible party to draw up his Earth’s name.

Why? Thank you for asking. I find it hard to ask someone to choose a name with just Math and Alphabet on cap. Just as I think it’s ridiculous to have a 17 or 18 year old make decisions then (like choosing a major) that can affect the rest of their lives.

As I travel through 120, and build with other Gods and Earths, I find that I am not completely comfortable with the name I accepted at the beginning of my journey. I didn’t draw the whole name up. My original enlightener did. And it’s not that I don’t like it, I do, but maybe there is a name that reflects me better. But I am now used to hearing and answering to my name as I am my given name. I did have to adjust my name some when I left my original enlightener to add on with my current God. I wanted to reflect him more and my place in our Universe.

I was righteous in Build God -Build for a minute. SMH. My God at that time did not believe in teaching Earths 120. I got Math and Alphabet. Not even all the Alphabet. And the righteous name he gave me was my nickname. No that it was an inappropriate or incorrect righteous name, but it was the same name I had always used and kind of still answer to but I felt cheated because I wanted a big ole Earth name! That was silly on my part and is a testimony to why the Nation didn’t stick back then.

But, I’m not advocating that we act as Muslims in the NOI do and add an X to our names until we figure out what name fits. But there should be no shame in saying, “I’m Sally Mae Jenkins and I’m currently working on the Actual Facts.”   There is however something amiss with this statement…. “My name is George Bush Jackson and I Knowledged 120 in God Build.” Yeah. Not a good look homie. 

To put a finish on this post because I can go on and on, and there is no rule that says that you have to draw up a name as soon as you’re eligible. But I will advocate for anyone other than my children (they get righteous names at birth) that I am involved with their curriculum; that they wait until they 1 120 to choose a name. Because then they will have all the information at hand to choose one that most closely reflects their attributes.

Peace

Today’s Supreme Mathematics is Knowledge Culture abbt to Power.  Knowledge is information gathered from paying attention. Culture is the way of life for a given demographic. Power is the ability to do something. So I see this as the importance of paying attention to the lifestyle of people. But who? 85%? 10%? 5%? 

The 14*s of the 1:14, 1:36 and 1:40 refer to Knowing the Culture. I see the 14:14 as Knowing who I am externally as Earth, with regards to other people (family at home, children, husband) and people outside of the home. It’s descriptive of our external Culture. How to manage what people see. The 14:36 refers to the internal identification of one’s way of life. His own self. We do what is correct (for no other reason but that it’s correct) and we strive to keep Peace. That is completely in line with what we teach. So it seems like the answer to the question above is we need to Know our own Culture. I agree with that completely. If you don’t know yourself and your Culture then you will easily be led in the wrong direction. But that is a different degree is it not?

The 14:40 breaks with the preceding lesson sets in that it is descriptive of the 85%’s Culture. This can be taken in 2 ways. First, it is the prevalent culture. If we are to do our duty, will is to teach the savage civilization, then we need to Know and Understand their Culture. By 1 and 3’ing this we will be able to effectively teach them without falling into the traps that holds them captive. This reminds me of a man I used to know back in NJ who was a devout Christian. He said his calling was to proselytize the whores in the community. He used to say that with a straight face. One whore he was saving actually got next to him and he forgot himself. He is now paying child support to her for their child and alimony to his now ex-wife. All because he got caught up in a Culture he did was trying to change.

The second reason it is important to Know the 85%’s Culture is because for many of us, it was our primary Culture. Though there are many Gods and Earths Building who were Born into this Culture, there are more (I’d say most of us) were not. We need to remember how we were lied to and bamboozled so it won’t happen again. Jews tell their history ad nauseam. We all know about how they were delivered from Egypt and the gas chambers. They never let anyone forget about it. Wiccans/Witches will go on and on and on and on about how there were persecuted centuries ago. And go as far to bumper stick their cars with, “Never again” stickers. We need to feel as strong about preserving our Culture, which for me is the best part, the part I love so much about this Nation.

So I guess my answer to my original question is all of the above. There is an old School House Rock lyric that says, “Knowledge is Power.” And I must agree. The more you Know the more you can do. The better you can navigate your circumstances.

Peace

The God said something to me last week that had to marinate within for a minute. He told me that I am on the DL with my “Nation-ness” in comparison to his “poster child-ness” for Allah’s Nation. Hmmmmm…..

Him: Either wears a flag or a Nation shirt wherever he goes. Seriously. The only other

paraphernalia he wears reps his alma mater. But even when repping SU, there is a flag on his lapel.  And if we go out... A crown on his head.

Me:   I have not earned a flag…. Yet. Working on it, but no cigar. I went to Show and

         Prove with the expectation of getting my own Nation paraphernalia. But the

         selection for girls left me wanting. Not saying there wasn’t anything for Earths; just

         not Earths with my particular… ahem… needs. BUT… I am refined and all that

         goes along with that soooooo….. Am I not repping the Nation?

I don’t hide my affiliation; but I don’t have “EARF” tatted on my forehead either. I dos what I does and if you have questions you are welcome to ask as long as they are respectful, and I will do my level best to lead you in the right direction.

But does my lack of advertisement mean I’m not ‘bout it ‘bout it about the Nation? In my heart/mind no, but I suppose folks will have their own opinions. I had never given much thought to it prior. When I was a Christian, I didn’t go around carrying a Bible, wearing crucifixes or proselytizing either. I wish I had a big sister Earth or an Earth mentor to talk to sometimes.

Peace

This is sick. I cannot believe I am saying this. But here goes…..

I was a different person when my late husband was alive than I am right now. Let me qualify.

When I was married, my only goal was to be a perfect wife. I had always been told that I would never be a proper wife because I was always “too” something. Too dark. Too big. Too educated. Too wild. Too spoiled. Too every-damn-thing! It was my determined idea that I would be the Black June Cleaver. And that’s what I did. I submitted to my husband and we had a good life together. My goal was maintenance. I was successful too. But the bottom dropped out when he returned to the Essence. Then my goal was to be a proper widow. I was that too. But then I got slapped upside the head with “what now?”

I couldn’t mourn and wear widow’s weeds forever. I mean I wore them for a minute but then something had to give. I was only 32.  I had gotten tired of the Black clothes somber words and puppy dog necks. When I got ready to move on I was faced with a quandary… What now?

My life had been geared for him. I had forgotten who I was and what I liked. Did I really like to keep a house so clean you could eat off the floor? Did I really hate yard work? Did I really like cooking everyday? Was I really that friendly? Did I really like doing all the things that I did to make my marriage happy? Am I Mrs. Late Husband or Serenity Love Sincere Peace Earth? Hell, the name ‘Serenity’ would not even have been a consideration had he not died.

I don’t want you to think that I’m glad my late husband is gone. No. If he was still living I would still be happily married to him. I was doing just what I wanted. But looking back on it, I really lost myself.

In these nearly 7 years that he’s been gone, I have come to many realizations regarding myself. I am a completely different person than I was then. Daily I find new things that I enjoy and that I’m good at. I cook food that my late husband would never try. I have interests that would not have been welcome in our household. I can walk around naked and be just as nasty as I choose. I can leave out at 3 am and go to Waffle House. I have come to learn where my boundaries lay. My boundaries, not his. But on the flip side, all of the responsibilities are mine. I have no help. That part sucks. I gotta cut the grass and pay the mortgage, taxes and repairs by myself. I’ve had toughen up because people try to take advantage of women who are alone. I’ve got stashed weapons and have had to be meaner than I would have chosen. 

But through it all….. I have found freedom. There are no limitations to what I can have or do. I really like that. And come to realize that the poor parts are really opportunities for growth and development.

Peace

I have the deep thoughts in the middle of the night. Sometimes frightening, often crazy, but Always deep. Here is what was floating around last night….

2:36

I came to the Wilderness of North America By myself

I have known plenty of Earths in my journey on this planet. Plenty. When these Earth’s were devout, they were good Earths. I don’t know any long term Earths personally. I know they are out there, but I have yet to share any social Equality with an Earth who has been Earth for 10+ years. And I should. I grew up with Gods and Earths. All of the women that were Earth in my adolescence and very young adulthood are Christians or Muslims now. And I literally grew up around 20 miles from the Holy city of Mecca.

If you know me in the physical, I say all the time that women NEED to come to this Nation on their own. The exceptions are the literal babies. Babies need direction. But if you are over the age of consent and you decide that you want to be Earth, this needs to be a decision that you make for Self.

Why? Because what if something happens to the God you came in with? Then what happens? What will become of you? I will grant that this Nation is geared toward men. But that is not an excuse for women to be all shiesty with their game. If you come in the Name of ‘Earth” then you need to do your 4.5 Billion years or don’t come at all. I cannot respect a woman according to 11:14 who claims the title for 5 years then decides to become a Moor or something like that.

So I am Earth. Took 37 years to come to that decision. And I came by myself. I was not attached to a God when I asked for transportation. And though I am now, doesn’t matter if we part for some reason or another. I have no birth record. I’m staying put.

Peace